Hi to everyone.
Reading your life stories it inspired me to write mine. I hope it is not too long.
So here it is.
I was born in Hamburg on a Sunday, 29th of December 1957 12.3oh
All I wanted at those early times in my life was to be mother as soon as possible, and an artist, and a singer, and a teacher, and a gymnast and always the best of all. My life was full of dreams and action.
I remember my spiritual character came out when I was 4 years old. Walking hand in hand with my mother I asked her about the omnipresence of god. ”Mom, does god know what we are doing at this moment?” “Yes.” She said. “And does he know what I am thinking?” “Yes.” She said. And I was a little bit scared, because I’ve been told: God will punish us if we are not good children. So I started my spiritual career with fear and with my inner obligation to be a “good child”.
I learned to read and write and count when my 2 years elder brother came to school. I learned everything with him, he hated me for that and started to beat me when ever he could.
I learned that my mother didn’t put attention to our disputes, (we are 5 children) but when I showed extremely good results, no matter what, I received many loving words and hugs. I needed that kind of attention and did whatever I could, to receive more and more until my brother started to beat me for that, also.
At school I had no friends, I was only trying to be the best of all, for the love of my parents was the most important for me. But I was suffering a lot because they hated me also for being the careerist.
With 13, I had my first experience with spirit. I was asleep when someone called my name, as I looked around in my room I saw a big green cloud and it spoke to me: “Don’t cry anymore, my love. You will have a fantastic life. First you will move 12 times (in Germany that is nothing natural) than you will travel across the big sea and you’ll be very happy in your life.”
I left school with 16 (in Germany you can finish after 10 years). Too early, but I lost my interest and started again to look inside. After reading the Bible by my own I decided to reject the mad Jewish god and love Jesus. I thought he is a good idol to follow up.
Too young for a career as a physiotherapist, I started first a nurse career.
With 17, I flew the ugly discussions of my family and found my own home.
With 18, I didn’t want to see any more death and suffering in the hospital. As I didn’t find a cheap possibility to learn physiotherapist, I started a carrier as a decorator. At that time, I knew my first husband.
As an apprentice I lived very hard times. With such little money I couldn’t really eat well. That made me very slim. But I was very beautiful and as I prayed for better life circumstances, I was discovered as a foto model. It came just in time, because my chief decorator fired me. He hated my revolutionary speeches and found a reason to say goodbye.
Some times later I quit the model job because the life style was too superficial and I preferred to become a geriatric nurse. I loved that but my body not. 2 years later I left with stiff neck and knees and so I had to change my job again.
I married when I was 20 and I finally wanted to become a mother ( that desire was always with me) but my husband wanted to make a career as a programmer with the upcoming personal computers and didn’t want to be a father so early. We nearly never had each other because he was always in other countries to learn his job.
We separated under very sad conditions. I lost all my power and only wanted to have him back but it didn’t work out.
In that situation, with 22, Scientology came into my life. The Scientology staff members checked me out and gave me what I needed. I received training, information and reincarnation therapies, until every negative emotion was gone. (I have to tell that in one regression into a former life I have seen my creator in front of me giving me a good advice. “Try it with love.” From that moment on I received the confirmation of the power of love.)
In such times I’ve learned so much about spirituality and capacity of a being, that I became completely strong and happy but there was no more money left, when I went out of the group one year later.
At the same day I had the divorce of my first husband, I met the love of my life (father of 4 children). Good timing:o)
My second husband came to Germany because he had the inner knowing, that he would find the love of his life in Hamburg. We met each other on the stairway in a building and fell in love at first glance.
He had to return to South America, where he had a factory and more, but we never really were separated from each other. I learned to visit him in my imagination. I draw pictures of what I saw and later, when I lived in Ecuador I saw, my imagination was right.
I was 25 when I moved to live with him. I have had 12 times moved in Hamburg and then I made my big journey over the big sea in a banana transporter from Bremerhaven to Guayaquil
In October 1983, he showed me his land. A natural Hacienda near the Andes of Ecuador, with a natural fountain ( our drinking water), without phone or electricity, it was our paradise.( I’ve written a book about it) But I’ve been very sick there and have learned from Indios and other Ecuatorians, how to establish health with natural remedies. Living close to nature, as we did, I knew god from face to face. The love inside of me grew more and more.
Many tourists came and the hacienda established as a business. All was fantastic until we had to sell it because the kidnappers of the country became very dangerous for us. My husband received reliable information about the threat we lived in, as our friend and neighbour was already kidnapped and his family had to sell every thing he worked for his whole life, to be liberated.
In 1987 we returned to Germany because the 16 year old sun of Klaus’ first marriage had many problems and wanted to leave the country. After leaving the factory in good hands we went together to Hamburg. There we bought a grocery store. But it was the worst thing we ever made. So we sold it one year later. Within this year I‘ve lost my first pregnancy. It nearly killed me physically and emotionally and the doctors told me I never will become a mother. It took me 7 years with Klaus to get pregnant, then I lost it in a Fallopian tube pregnancy and after that, they told me, I would never be a mother? I could not accept it. I knew I had to be a mother one day.
In 1988 we went to a Michael Jackson Concert in Hamburg and there it happened, the all changing situation of my life. In the midst of thousands of fans, I felt what love can do. Michael loved his fans and they loved him back. I felt like lifting up and floating over the earth for the next 6 weeks. I had fantastic dreams and revelations and at that time I started to write all my knowledge down. All my former life experiences and my inner knowing about love and my vision that all humans are one big family of light and love all together around the globe. I saw the light weaver net and knew, I have a part in it. I wanted to start to join all in love. I started with an article that no one wanted to print and I lost my power. Internet was not known at that time and I was not in contact with any spiritual teacher.
1989 we returned to Ecuador. I was reading a lot of Ramtha and Seth and so on, and while my husband was in his company, I was looking for something beautiful in my life. As I saw that I didn’t get pregnant again I wanted to be “Mother” of another “Baby” what I have to put my love and attention to. It came to me as another model career, but this time I made it big. I saw that models didn’t have agents in Ecuador, so the first model agency of Ecuador was born. It was such fun to be in TV and the press, to be invited, to give autographs. Easy living? Not at all. It was hard work until one day in Quito, I felt very sick, wondering about this situation. My trousers didn’t fit any more and my breasts were swollen.
Oops, could it be? YES. I was pregnant but my relationship was very bad at that time (we haven’t been married yet) and so I decided to return to my parent’s house in Germany to give birth in Hamburg and show them my baby.
But my husband didn’t believe that I would come back to Ecuador and accompanied me. He left his factory in the hands of one of his grown up suns from his first marriage and came with me back to Germany.
18th of September 1990 4:22h in Hamburg, my son showed me the biggest miracle on Earth. I was the happiest person alive but my husband, Klaus, didn’t value me anymore. I had to live without him.
My parents gave me a home with my own independent rooms. In the following time I was working as a singer and artist but my real passion was being mother, so I couldn’t make real career. Klaus tried to conquest me back. It took him nearly six years to reach his goal. And as my son was 6 years old he firmed our marriage papers as a witness.
We went back to Ecuador where Klaus came in time to rescue his company to make bankrupt. I didn’t like to but an inner voice told me: “If you don’t go with him, you won’t live your life.”
I wanted to train young singers in Ecuador but my life showed me another way.
It came to me because of my own pain. My stomach ache was very strong and no medicine helped really, as Klaus brought me a Reiki book in German language. I read it and knew: that is my way, but where should I receive this energy from.
Due to my medical inclination, I could connect with Dr. Usui (Reiki Founder) behind the veils. He helped me out and gave me the Reiki power because I promised to help every one who needs it.
So, I started my next career as a healer. I had a group of angels around me and I started to perceive their information and passed it over to the patients. All together my knowledge about natural healing, Reiki, meditation, channeling and so on was so successful that I became prominent again. Invitations to TV and my own radio program. But the best of all, I finally started to gather persons in love.
Nearly 10 years after receiving this fantastic vision I had time, power, love and connections to do something about it. But it took me about 2 years to join a few thousand persons in the football stadium of Guayaquil. All was for free: music, the stars, the promotion, everything. But it was very difficult to join them because they didn’t like to give their hands into the hand of a person with another religion. It was very difficult to talk to the priests and other guiding persons of spiritual character.
14th February 2000 we gathered them with a fantastic meditation, we were lifted up into heavens and all participants were completely happy. But afterwards I was empty. No more power.
2001 we returned to Germany because of the growing crime rate in Ecuador. My husband had got over various dangerous situations in the streets, where he came out alive. We didn’t want our son to grow up under such conditions.
Back in Germany Klaus didn’t find a job, because he was too old while I worked in an office of a shipping agency. (I had no permission to work as a therapist in Germany).
2004 we changed to Majorca, a Mediterranean island of Spain, because the heat and the language and, and, and… should be better for my suffering husband.
We established a spiritual centre in the middle of Palma (seramor = being love) and a magazine in three languages: German, Spanish and English with healing, loving and spiritual contents. But our money run out and we didn’t earn as much as we needed, so in 2007 we returned into the saving social net of Germany.
All those years my vision of a united humanity in love didn’t leave me. It always let me feel that I have a part in it. But I didn’t know how and where and when, because Ecuador didn’t have the result it should have. In my inner despair, I wrote it down. I wrote the story of my life, with a lot of additional fantasy, as a trilogy.
In the first book is my past life including the beginning as a being somewhere in the universe, when spirit brought me into action, outer space lives and earlier incarnations on Gaya.
Second book is about my life in Ecuador and my spiritual growing up to the manifestation of my vision, Million people united in love and affection along the Pan American Highway. In my vision we can see behind the veil in such moments and that gives big changes.
The third book is written about how those changes are coming into reality and how I imagine the ascension into the 5th dimension.
I think next step is a storyboard for a spiritual movie.
Now, that I have detached this vision and put it into a novel, I have found several groups online to join with me the same idea, just as you.
That is my life until now.
Next stop is the BIG HUG.
You can join us at www.bighug.ning.com
I hope my German English is ok and you understood everything.
Love to all of you
Sylvia
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