Over the years, I’ve shared the story of my Encounter with Unconditional Love with many people. Jay (not his real name) was one of those people. He lived in San Francisco and occasionally rode my bus from Petaluma to Sonoma to visit his girlfriend. About thirty-five, he was quiet and shy but after a few trips together, we became quite friendly. After telling him about my extraordinary encounter with the Energy of Unconditional Love on Mt. St. Helena, he was silent for a moment. Then he said, “I had a similar experience.”
He told me that one evening, as he drove home from work on Mission Street in San Francisco, he suddenly became overwhelmed with emotion and began sobbing uncontrollably. Concerned about safety and privacy, he looked for a place to get off the street. Was it just coincidence that he was passing an empty parking lot at that moment? Turning his pickup truck into the lot, Jay parked in the darkest area he could find and shut his engine off. Folding his arms over the steering wheel, he rested his head on them and continued sobbing.
In his highly emotional state, he began to see a vision of himself standing in front of a hallway mirror. Shirtless, he stared back at himself and guessed he was in his mid-twenties. Like his current thirty-five-year-old self, he had long red hair tied back in a ponytail. A small baby was cradled in his arms. When he looked closely, he could see it was himself as a baby. Raising his eyes again, he saw another version of himself standing beside him. It was an adolescent version of himself.
As the mid-twenty-year-old Jay looked at his different selves in amazement, an older male voice began to speak to him from a room behind him. The unseen Voice told Jay to take a good look at his different selves. He didn’t need to be told twice. As the Jay in front of the mirror and the Jay sitting behind the steering wheel examined their different selves, a great sense of love and appreciation overwhelmed them both, something they had not experienced before? The Jay behind the steering wheel continued to sob uncontrollably.
After telling me his story, Jay went on to describe what it was like for him growing up. Whenever he made a mistake or did something his parents didn’t like they would yell and curse at him. If he forgot something, he was a “stupid idiot”; if he made a mistake, he was a “stupid idiot”; and if he failed to do what they wanted him to do, he was a “stupid idiot”. He told me, “one time when I forgot my truck keys in the house and had to go back to get them, I stopped in front of the hallway mirror on the way out to stab a finger at myself while I screamed, you stupid idiot!” Without realizing it, Jay had become just like his parents.
Is Jay’s story of family dysfunction and abuse rare? I don’t think so. Was his profound vision in San Francisco an example of Divine Intervention? I don’t think there’s any doubt that it was! How many of us have had Divine Intervention experiences like this? I suspect many of us have but, like Jay, we’re afraid to share them for fear of ridicule. If you’ve had a life-changing vision or experience, share it with us so we can all benefit from it. Every little bit of information we can gather helps us understand more about what we are, who we are and what reality is.
Jay’s unique Inner experience allowed him to feel love for himself, to empathize with his many selves, something his outer experience didn’t do. On a final note, Jay said he never shared this story with anyone because he thought they would make fun of him and think he was crazy, especially the people he knew in San Francisco. Isn’t that sad? Now that he has shared this story with me, I’m sharing it with you, with his permission. (He told me he’d write down the details of his story so I could publish it on my website but he kept dragging his feet so I asked him to tell me the story a second time in case I had to write it from memory, which is what ended up happening. – Pete)
Pete – http://realtalkworld.com
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having (creating) a human experience.” – Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
“How you define yourself and the world around you, forms your intent, which, in turn, forms your reality.” – Seth
In other words, we create our reality from what we choose to believe about ourselves, and the world around us.
If we don’t consciously choose our beliefs, we unconsciously absorb them from our surroundings.
If our beliefs, attitudes, values and expectations create our reality, can we afford not to question them?
The more we love, understand and appreciate ourselves, the better we treat ourselves, and the world.
Blessings of love and understanding to us all!
The secrets of the universe lie hidden in the shadows of our experience. Look for them!